The world was too much for Lydia. She'd had enough. She couldn't take her mother anymore, or her father or anything else. She was going to kill herself; and she was going to do it dramatically, by god.
She was set on it.
One day, when both of her parents were gone from the house for one reason or another,---Lydia no longer cared where they went, or why---she pried apart one of her mother's razors (you know, the cheap kind with only one blade) and withdrew the glinting blade from it. She smiled at the sliver of metal in her hand.
She was ready.
She ran some bath water, letting the tub fill slowly as she sat at the edge of it and thought, twirling the lethal bit of metal in her hand. She dropped it twice in the floor and both times scrambled to find it. Her mother would kill her if she destroyed all of her razors because she kept losing the blades out of them.
Have to get in the right frame of mind for this, she contemplated. Testing the water and finding it agreeable, she stripped off her clothes and climbed inside. She mulled over why she should die. Let's see, I'm fifteen, I'm unwanted...uh...I'm ugly? No, I'm not ugly...but maybe I should tell myself that I am. Yeah, I'm ugly, and...um...God hates me. Yeah, that's it. No, wait! There is no God. That works better.
She laughed to herself. Yeah, today was a good day to die.
After she soaked for a few moments, she lifted the razor and held it out in front of her dramatically. She lowered it to her wrist, letting all the suicidal thoughts flow through her mind like she was supposed to.
Wait, she interrupts herself, I really should bathe first. I really don't smell all that good. She resolved to wash before she continued. She didn't want the person who found her to notice her uncleanliness. She wanted them to focus on the fact she was dead, not the fact that she stank.
After she was satisfied with herself, she looked around her for the razor.
She couldn't find it. She sighed and felt underneath her for it. She came up with nothing.
Ah, whatever, she fumed. I'll just do it later. I'm kind of hungry, anyway.
She climbed out of the bath and wrapped a towel around her dripping body. Once she was fully dressed, she went downstairs and dug through the refrigerator for something to answer to the grumbling in her stomach. She found a half-empty box of pizza buried at the bottom of the fridge and pulled three pieces. She warmed them up in the microwave and sat with them on the couch once they were at just the right tmepurature.
She was on her last piece and had pizza sauce and grease all over her face when her parents came home.
"Oh, hey Mom," Lydia said, taking in a mouthful of pizza. She swallowed forcefully, the last bit of cheap, greasy pizza sliding down her throat.
"Hey, Lydia," said her mother. She was in the middle of taking off her jacket when she stopped. "You want to come with me to your grandmother's today? We're supposed to help her haul some things to the dump. I just remembered" She waited there in front of the door, her jacket half off of her.
"Aaw, I can't," said Lydia. "There's something I was supposed to do today."
"What?"
"I don't remember."
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"Excellent stuff, It shows the face of suicide and what lenghts she took to avoid the healing process through communication... keep up the great work." -- sasu.
"hi um....your story is bloody hilaroious i dont know if you mean it to be funny but god it is i think the part when she has a wash because she doesnt smell clean is freaking funny as fuk anyway really good keep up all the hard work XD sharle xox " -- sharlene kumar .
"Im sorry I dont like your story...I had a friend commit suicide and joking about it isnt funny.. Although im glad your character decided not to do it...It's not worth it!" -- Isabella, Rome, Italy.
"Sharlene, yeah, it was supposed to be funny. Isabella, you don't have to like my story. But also keep in mind that I don't have to tiptoe around your feelings just because you had a friend off themselves. Tragic, sure. But you didn't need to comment saying suicide isn't funny." -- Riot.
"I like this story a whole lot because its almost like it came from a real book You add so much detail that brings the reader into the story. You should make a book sometime. I really think you would go far." -- Cara Spencer.
"i thought ir was funny make lots more!" -- lizzy, myob, myob, myob!.
"i thought your story was disrepectful!! many people kill themselves everyday and think about their families and if they read this, and your comment to issibella was extrememly rude...you should be ashamed" -- tilly.
"I thought the story was great and I do agree with Tilly that it was disrespectful. Also,I'm sorry to hear about Isabella's friend. I will admit that I have gone through this myself... minus the fact that I wouldn't care if I stank. Okay, I've attempted it 7 times. But, all I can say is YES IT'S A GREAT STORY but you shouldn't have intended it to be funny. It was offensive to me in some ways because of the fact that I'm struggling with problems that have to deal with my parents and stuff. So yeah, maybe you should write stories like this with a more serious or telling of a story intent. NOT TO BE EFFING FUNNY!" -- Miranda.
"How can you even think about joking about this topic? Suicide is NOT funny, and it's shouldn't be portrayed as something funny! It is deeply serious, and I feel sorry for you. Because you are obviously too damn shallow to notice that this story might hurt some people. Think about other peoples feelings before you make a joke about them! And this isn't even good writing!" -- Joseph.
"everyones whos tripping over the story.. RELAX its a story. she can write whatever she wants about any topic she wants. yeah suicide is a sad subject but its a story like relax take a deep breath and stop reading if your not interested. i have a friend who i feel contemplates suicide alot. it scares the crap out of me. but at the end of the day this story made me giggle. so relax and if your that offended go to the top right corner of your screen and hit the little x... simple as that" -- nikki, ottawa, ontario, country.
"its a really great story dont listen to them they're idiots ..dont take up the a$$ people its just a story and i agree with nikki hit the little x button" -- Ali, Los Angeles, CA.
"This was not funny at all it mocked people who've tried to commit suicide Lydia is just a fuked up bich who changes her mind over pizza!" -- Ihateyou, Romona, United States, California.
"Suicide is not a joke! And tilly is true. Your comment to isabella are effing rude! How could you say like that to her!?" -- eminie.
"This story is not constructive enough!!!!!!!" -- ashley smart, kingston, hamaica.
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