Arriving by Peter Rivendell Just a poem about the way I`ve been feeling lately. [65 words]
The Embrace by R Bennett Okerstrom A newly born vampire's first taste. [90 words]
Holding On To Life by L A Winterburn One mans fight with suicide. [109 words]
The Netherworld by Stuart Eric Longridge The real world, before the smothering of education. [103 words]
Supa Computa by Stuart Eric Longridge A scary realistic tale. [140 words]
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Winter Wind by Judith Goff Alone. [128 words]
Where? by Judith Goff Lost love [97 words]
Vamp by Judith Goff I know, more vampires, I just can't seem to help myself... and who said vampires have to be male? [158 words]
Vampire Wedding by David B Doc Byron Two vampires take their wedding vows. [129 words]
Trees by David B Doc Byron You figure it out! [145 words]
Time Again by P M ... [36 words]
The Traveller by L A Winterburn - [88 words]
The Plan by L A Winterburn One plan to wipe out humanity. [74 words]
The Memory Book by Judith Goff A real departure from my usual ... [155 words]
The Lovers by Sue (Sooz) Simpson - [124 words]
The Looking Glass by Judith Goff - [155 words]
The Hhmmm Efect by Sue (Sooz) Simpson - [783 words]
The Extraordinary Way by Leslie Clark A poem about how I plan onliving the rest of my life, with my beloved and our future chil... [106 words]
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Spontaneous Combustion by Judith Goff A little heat.... [72 words]
Rhythms Of Pi by Dark Matter This one's totally up to the reader's interpretation...I'd rather not say anything about it. I'm... [367 words]
Pity by Mia Angello Chris Isaak's, Graduation Day, is today for me. [32 words]
Onslaught Of Love by Judith Goff Secret yearnings ... [137 words]
Nothing Left by Judith Goff Love realized. [138 words]
Missing You by L A Winterburn - [21 words]
Insanity Part Un & Insanity Part Deux by Judith Goff I believe I've lost it .... [155 words]
In Your Dreams by R Bennett Okerstrom - [71 words]
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Happenstance by Judith Goff A little silly, perhaps? [66 words]
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Edge Of Eternity by Judith Goff Loss and redemption. [189 words]
Don't by Judith Goff - [91 words]
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The Hands Of Time by Dianne Lee Poem depicting life. [287 words]
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Summer by Kirsten McManus - [372 words]
Something by Kirsten McManus - [39 words]
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Singularity by Rachel Weisenfeld Short, sweet, to the point love poem. [42 words]
Shadow In Light by Pedro Alsama A wrong movement about the weather. [28 words]
Post Mortem by Judith Goff In Memory of Mark Whitney Davis 1960-2001 You left me here alone ... WHY? [68 words]
Pet Rock by Jeff Fazzalore I wrote this poem out of pure boredom. It was originally for an assignment at school, but I decided th... [25 words]
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12.5.02 by Kirsten McManus - [57 words]
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TITLE (EDIT)
Gone |
DESCRIPTION
Being miserable is the new black.
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AUTHOR
Peter Rivendell |
ABOUT
THE AUTHOR
Who me? Born in 1962. Wrote prolifically as a teenager, heavily influenced by books & the music of the time. Stopped writing for 20 years more or less. But started again...
Some of the work here dates from the "early period" - 1979-1982. The rest is since 2000.
I`ve no idea whether I`m a better writer now or then. Maybe I was never any good! I`ve always wondered.
Feedback most welcome...
I've not visited this site at all since January 2006 as I shortly after discovered the unfettred joys of blogging. I'm still writing and actually had a very good summer of writing. I'm posting a recent poem here now but all my recent work is available on my blog - take a look - http://peter-rivendell-poems.blogspot.com/
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AUTHOR'S OTHER TITLES (53)
A Bright Blue Cloudless Sky (Poetry) A cheery work about emotional displacement, I suppose is one way of putting it. But whatever you think. [184 words]
Across Fields (Poetry) - [25 words] [Relationships]
Adventure Playground (Poetry) - [113 words]
Afraid Of Buildings (Poetry) Written one unhappy morning, but I got a poem out of it... [132 words]
Arriving (Poetry) Just a poem about the way I`ve been feeling lately. [65 words]
At Sea (Poetry) - [39 words]
Best Friend (Poetry) Sometimes you can`t even choose your friends. [62 words]
Catch The Moon (Poetry) An uncertain tale of "forbidden" love. [92 words]
Confusion 1 (Poetry) A game with destiny? You decide. [169 words]
Curiosity Of Nations (Poetry) The destruction of an old way of living leads to escape and renewal. [254 words]
Decisions (Poetry) - [59 words]
Decisions Of Allegiance (Poetry) As a teenager, I revealed my most precious secret to my best friend - my love for him. He rejected me. That painful experience influenced some of the thoughts in this poem. [150 words]
Deep Water (Poetry) Just another day. I know this feeling but we`re not close friends, fortunately. [107 words]
Distortion (Poetry) Written about a million years ago, but still makes a kind of sense...? [129 words]
Drowned (Poetry) A lyric for a love song of sorts - [293 words]
Echoes On Water (Poetry) - [19 words]
Expedition (Poetry) A view of the future? Or a view of the past? Is there any difference? [170 words]
Falling (Poetry) the first poem I wrote after years of not writing... it`s about a feeling that I often have lately, that somewhere along the line, something`s gone horribly wrong and I can`t quite put my finger on it... [132 words]
Flow (Poetry) - [106 words]
Flowers That Only Last A Day (Poetry) - [40 words]
Global Warming (Poetry) - [64 words]
Heart Of Our Home. (Poetry) Betrayal is not always the greatest betrayal. [83 words]
I Wait (Poetry) Another tale of urban anxiety... probably as much a song as a poem. [133 words]
In Memoriam (Poetry) Short and bitter-sweet. [38 words]
Isolation (Poetry) A poem about... [26 words]
Magazine (Poetry) This poem was inspired by the Berlin novels of Christopher Isherwood (which inspired the musical "Cabaret"). It`s a story set at the moment when you realise that while you`ve been oblivious to events ... [251 words]
Marching Band (Poetry) When love fades... a lyric as much as a poem... [96 words]
Nightscape (Poetry) - [100 words]
Nightwalk (Poetry) About walking alone at night. That`s it. [193 words]
Opening Up (Poetry) Am I no longer enjoying my job...? [198 words]
Paused In Traffic. (Poetry) The January blues, I guess. [100 words]
Performers (Poetry) When you feel like an outsider, sometimes you hope no one ever notices... Written when I was 18. Seems strange to me now, but can just about remember feeling like this - glad I was able to write it do... [239 words]
Pierrot (Poetry) A love letter, after a fashion. [196 words]
Pushing The River (Poetry) - [39 words]
Random Acts (Poetry) Written by writing lines at random and then organising them into a more "organic" kind of flow - and somehow, it tells a story and makes sense. Just an experiment, but a telling one? [204 words]
Sarcophagus (Poetry) Grief and betrayal in a bleak landscape. [204 words]
Scared (Poetry) - [74 words]
Scratched To Grey (Poetry) ... being in love with someone who can never love you back... [145 words]
Sequence (Poetry) Playing and losing a game with fate. [202 words]
Silent Command (Poetry) - [208 words]
Swimming Against The Tide (Poetry) - [90 words]
The Beating Of Wings (Poetry) For you to decide. [254 words]
The Fundamental Loneliness And Futility Of Our Lives In The Context Of The Vast Infinity Of Time And Space... (Poetry) A feeling. [28 words]
The Storm Inside Him (Poetry) The Storm Inside Him [108 words]
The Trees (Control) (Poetry) It`s up to you to decide. I know what I think. (Title: Control - but that was already taken) [161 words]
Thoughts Of A War (Poetry) Leaving home... [240 words]
Threats (Poetry) Sometimes, even in a crowded place you can feel totally alone... [73 words] [Gay & Lesbian]
Trapped In The Masque (Poetry) A dark hymn for troubled times. [120 words]
Triptych (Poetry) Three linked poems about alienation. [339 words]
Two (Poetry) Just a fragment... but it tells the whole story. [24 words]
Unending Rain (Poetry) Crime doesn`t pay. [76 words]
Wave (Poetry) - [34 words]
When Winter Comes (Poetry) The struggle to connect. [148 words]
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Gone
Peter Rivendell
Where were you when I needed you?
When the voice in my head strove only to drive me deep within myself.
When I felt such bitter despair that I could barely function,
Couldn`t eat, could hardly bring myself to leave the chair,
To turn the light on as darkness surrounded me,
My eyes becoming unfocussed with staring into the tunnel of black thoughts.
I couldn`t hear you when you told me to pull myself together
As if my feelings meant nothing,
Had no cause and no justification.
Were you right when you said that? It didn`t feel right.
It felt like rejection. Like contempt.
And yet I never doubted your love for me,
Never felt unloved.
Only that love couldn`t help me,
Couldn`t compete with the the dim light of my unhappiness.
A flickering candle of no hope,
Gently wavering in an unfelt movement of air.
Those feelings still return, the issues still unresolved.
Is this what growing older will bring?
A slow descent into a quiet kind of madness?
So much promise broken,
Unfulfilled, wasted,
The future so much smaller now,
So much faster to approach and fly past,
A child dragged by the hand
Passed shop windows maybe full of dreamt of treasures.
Barely glimpsed, a blur of colour and confusion.
Out of bounds.
Gone.
You`ve not gone.
Sometimes I`m afraid that I have.
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"The voices can be hard to ignore. The darkness draws you in. " -- R. Bennett Okerstrom.
"Well, yes? But is it any good (fishing deperately)." -- Peter Rivendell.
""Only that that love couldn`t help me,""Passed shop windows that look as if they might be full of dreamt of treasures."Take the repeating words out of these 2 lines. Other than that, leave it alone. It's great. Try reading Tiny Voices. That's my take on the same thing, I think you'd like it." -- Sylvia Browne.
"Oh my God! Did I write this (looks to see)Peter this is great and I can relate so much. I may send this to someone in an email with your name as the author of course. AMAZING! Really touched me...." -- Michelle.
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STORYMANIA PUBLICATION DATE
February 2003 |
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