My Boys Bestfriend I just don't get it. How can guys be so pigheaded all the time? Don't they have feelings?. Sometimes I think they are a completely different species brought apon this earth to break our hearts. Don't get me wrong guys are great even my boyfriend Josh has his sweet moments but ever since Jay turned up my whole faith in guys went out the window. Jay is just err..... he always has a comment for everything I say and always seems to make a fool of me and even better he is Josh's best friend. Which means I can never get away from him where ever we are you can find Jay. Before he turned up at Courtup High, Josh and I had the perfect relationship. Friday nights at the movies, Saturdays shopping and Saturday nights at whatever party was happening what more could a girl ask for and then came the third wheel. Well it was another normal Saturday night, Josh and myself were going to Katie Pipers party she's on the cheer leading squad and not one of my friends but Josh knew her pretty well. By the time we got there the her house started to fill up with people up stairs and down. "I'll get ya drink Kali" Josh said rushing off through the crowd my heart beated to the music blearing from a stereo on the corner of the room. I turned around as someone's drink split all over my new top. Great now I will smell like beer allnight I looked up from my top to see Jay standing there with a huge grin on his face "You !" I shouted "Did you enjoy my drink?" He said "Get lost" I yelled over the music "What sorry I cant hear you" He said sarcastically I pushed past him so I could find my friend Gemma she was dancing her heart out on the dance floor with some guy who I recognized from school. The thing about Gemma is that she is never happy with what she has for example the longest she has dated a guy for is a week then she breaks their hearts, so I guess that whole thing about guy breaking our hearts isn't exactly true Gemma does a lot of that herself . She hasn't even had her heart broken once I guess the guys never get a chance too. Josh saw me and walked over with two drinks in his hands. "Punch OK?" he said putting a cup in my hand no doubt it was spiked Josh wrapped one arm around my waist as we watched people dance. We had been going out for six months now which seemed like eternity to me. It all began when we ran into each other in the hallway mainly because I to busy perving at my crush but that soon changed, we ended up in English together and couple of days later we were out on a date. It's all been smooth sailing from there on. "Wanna dance?" Josh said "Sure" I said as we hit the dance floor we danced for a while until Josh show the poor excuse for a human being Jay and left me standing there looking like a total idiot. I found a seat as my legs were tired. Gemma danced her way to where I was. "What up?" she said full of energy "Nothing much" "You've been drinking beer, I thought you hated that stuff" "Jay spilt it on me probably on purpose" "Right" she said as if she didn't believe me I looked at jay and Josh laughing about something it was probably me. "There are so many guys here tonight" she said giving another guy a flirty look and I watched as he smiled back Gemma flipped her long strait blonde hair side to side you guessed it she was flirting with another guy. "How do you do it ?"I said shaking me head "Do what ?" she said innocently "Hey babe" Josh said "Sorry I thought you were talking to me" Gemma said being smart "More like Baby" Jay said as he lurked out form where ever he was standing "Well she's my baby" Josh said kissing me He wasn't even going to stick up for me why do guys always agree with everything there friends say. Now I went from Babe to baby in all 2 seconds. "Jay want to dance ?" Gemma said giving me a sexy smile "No thanks Gemma Iv got my eye on some one else" You should have seen Gemma's face it was classic it was like she had never heard the no word from a guy before. Jay knew what Gemma was like he has seen her in action before since some of his friends dated her for about 3 days. "Who Miss Piggy" I said. The opportunity was too good to pass up "Was that Miss Pretty ? yes I now she is" he said "How are you enjoying the my party" Kelly Piper said as she floated over wearing a tight little white strapless dress which couldn't get any shorter. I caught at a glimpse at Josh and Jay who's eyes were practically popping out of there heads. How come guys can look at girls when they have a girlfriend but we would never dream of doing it if we had a boyfriend? I know I should be stopping Josh but I just lack the self-esteem to stop him. "Well I better go. Places to be, people to meet, you know. Bye" she said with the I'm better than you attitude. "What a tart" Gemma said. Not that she could talk. The party finished around 4 am. Josh was wasted. Josh kissed me goodnight and before I knew it I was snuggled up in bed. Sunday I got a call from Josh who sounded like he had a hang over not that I was surprised with the amount he had to drink. To think of it I was feeling a little sick myself probably something to do with that punch. "Kal I don't think we should go anywhere today" Josh said "Fine with me" I said "I spent half the morning throwing up" Josh said not that I wanted to know "It's cool josh I'll see you on Monday" "Bye" he mumbled I decided to drag my dog Joey out for a walk and get some fresh air. I got two streets away and somebody called my name. I turned to see Jay waving from his window. That's another thing, Jay lives just around the corner from me while Josh live further away not walking distance anyway. I waved a little wave and continued on Before I knew it he tapped me one shoulder then appeared on the other one "Go away" I said "That's no way to greet someone in the morning" I looked at him he was holding a basketball under his arms. Jay has played basketball since I knew him and he always thought he was the best at it. I think it's the whole height thing because he so tall he towers over people therefore he thinks he's better than anyone else. "Morning" I said sarcastically "Good morning Kali" He said all happy and cheery "So how come you don't have a hang over don't tell me you didn't drink" "Well I cant afford to. I have to keep healthy if I want to make it big in basketball so that means no drinking, smoking and drugs" He said proud of himself "Fair enough but what makes you think you will make it big" I had to admire him for having so much ambition. "Dare I say I have talent" "I could beat you anyway" as soon as the words came out of my mouth I wished I hadn't said them. I was no player but I had been to enough games since Jay got here, it's the my boyfriends best friend plays so I have to go thing. "Really" he said as he raised one eyebrow by now Joey was starting to panter she was warn out. "Tired Joe's" Jay said patting her he always called here that "Her name's Joey" I said "You and me there now !" He said pointing to a basketball court where he usually trained "Unless you're chicken Kali" "I'm no chicken" I yelled "Come one Kali show me what you are made of' He said wrapping one arm around me How was I suppose to get out of this one if I didn't play I would never hear the end of it. "All right your on" I said yanking the basketball and bouncing it on the court By half time he was winning and gloating about it the way he does but I couldn't believe how much fun I was having with Jay of all people "Who's the best I wanna hear you say Jay yeah" he sang I pushed him and he nearly lost his balance but he grabbed me an pulled me down with him we laided on the court laughing. We stopped as stirred into each others eyes. Jay pushed a piece of my hair behind my ear, my heart began to beat a million times faster. I had this urge to kiss those perfect lips his lips touched mine and all the heavens skies met. This was perfect, wonderful everything a kiss was supposed to be. What am I doing? this is not right I hate Jay right? I jumped getting to my feet I must have lost my balance from my head being so dizzy because Of what just happened. I fell falling to the ground "Oh" I screamed and Jay try to help me up "Don't" I screamed "Look at me Kali I have to have a look at it" He said examining it carefully A jolt of electricity shot through my whole body. "It's no broken but you've sprained it" He said scooping me up my whole body in to his strong muscular arms 'It hurts Jay" I said "Don't worry I'll get you to my house then drive you to the hospital trust me Kali you will be fine I would never let anything happen to you" Those words made me feel confront. Jay had Joey on the lead as she ran bedding us I grabbed Jays shirt in my fist to try and stop the pain I leaned my head against his chest tears fell down my face with my sprained ankle and my new feeling toward Jay I was a mess When we got to Jays house he left Joey there and drove me to the hospital and here I am in a white hospital bed with Jay sitting in the chair me side my bed holding my hand. "Told you would be fine" He said going back to his normal cheeky self as his hand slid out of mine Then Josh came rushing through the bid double white doors "Kali" He yelled giving me a big hug but my eyes stayed locked on Jay as he turned away "Josh" I said "Are you all right?" "I'm fine just a sprained ankle that's all" "What has Jay been doing to you?" Jay and I both looked at each other as if we had done one of the worst things ever which really we had. "I tried to do worse" Jay said trying to come up with a his normal cheeky line "Well what were you to doing anyway?" "Basketball" I snapped a little to quickly "Well I'm off" Jay said standing up and grabbing his jacket and Keys "Cya mate and thanks for looking out for my girl "Your Girl" Jay mumbled to himself "Thanks" I said but he was already out the door I'm sure Jay felt the same way I did even though he would probably never admit it. Everything was different when we were out on the court I had seen a side of Jay which I didn't think existed. Was I going nuts falling for my boyfriends best friend? The doctor kept me over night for observation and Josh left the hospital late that night. Let me tell you can do a lot of thinking and souls searching in a hospital but it seemed to get me where. All I knew was that I was Josh's girlfriend and with that comes rules you must follow but what about my heart? Tuesday at school Gemma came running over "God Kali what did you do to yourself?" "Just sprained it Doc said it will be fine in a week" She gave me a big hus so hard I could hardly breathe. Gemma had a heart underneath her attitude I'm sure she hated breaking the guys hearts. "Gemma I have to talk to you about something" "What is it kali?" She said sounding concerned Then I spotted Josh walking across the grass. "Not now" She turned to see Josh who had just about reached us. "Ok" She said as if she knew it had something to do withJosh The bell rang and Gemma stood with me till Josh reached us "Ive gotta fly peoples catch ya later" she said flipping he hair over he shoulder "hey how the ankle" He said kissing me but it wasn't the same. Well I called Gemma up and she came over after school this situation needed some best friend opinions. "Gemma I kissed Jay" "What are you talking about Jay the guy you absolute hate" "Yes" I said quiet as a mouse "Kali what were you thinking?" "Gemma I think I'm falling in love with him and I cant make these feelings go away otherwise I would" "How did this happen?" "We were playing basketball and well it kinda just happen" "Wow !" Gemma said "Come Gemma now what am I suppose to do?" "Well does Josh Know about this?" "No way it would break his heart If I told him" "Good and Have you spoken to Jay since the kiss?" "No" "Well I suggest you do and the see what happens let fate take it's toll" "Come one Gemma you're my best friend in the whole world do I stay with my loyal boyfriend or follow my heart?" "It's not my call Kali it's yours but if you really love Jay then ......." "Then what?" "You know what best for you not me" "All right I'll go talk to Jay" "I bet he is at the basketball court now since he has a big game on Friday night" "What now?" "Go" she said pushing me out the door I couldn't believe what was going to say I walk around the corner there he was sure enough looking gorgeous as ever I stood there for a minute he will probulary just think that kiss was a big joke then it came over me what if he told Josh what would happen? I slowly walked up to the court with butterflies in my stomach Jay shooted a hop and scored as I limped over. "Kali what are you doing walking?" "Jay we need to talk?" "What about?" I knew he would not make this easy for me "Jay come one what happened" He stopped playing basketball and walked over "Just forget it, it didn't happen" "Jay it did happen I'm Josh's girlfriend and your his best friend" he sure wasn't the same Jay from the other day "I Know but I don't know I couldn't help myself" "What are you saying?" "Your his girlfriend and it should stay that way I mean you did think that kiss meant anything did you" That was it if I was ever going to stand up for myself it was now! "Jay it did and I know you think so and you felt the same way as me" and tears ran down my face slowly I couldn't stand this how could he be do caring at one moment the so horrible another I walked away and my ankle slip and I fell to the ground my eyes drew tears of pain and anger why was he making this so hard. "Kali I'm sorry" Jay said sitting next to me on the grass Jay wiped away the tears that rolled down my face with his finger tips. "Jay why do you enjoy being so horrible to me?" "I don't its like a wall I put up around me so I wont fall........ his words faded but the part I knew he was going to didn't come. "Jay" I said waiting for him to answer me He looked deep in thought like he was looking for something his face felt cold and grey not a alive as it normally was. "Kali this isn't a good idea" he finally said after a while of silence "I follow my heart and it leads me to you not Josh" I said "Your heart should go in the other direction" "Dam it Jay are you afraid of falling in love or something" "yes" It just came to me I didn't know anything about his past come to think of it I don't think anyone did. Jay sort of just showed up at our high school and no one asked any questions it was just he joined the school's basketball team so everyone thought he was just a basketball freak but what was in his past why was it such a secret? "Tell me about your past" "Kali it's not something I like to talk about" "Jay come on tell me I trusted you now you trust me" "She was so beautiful I loved her so much and she didn't see the car coming and she died indecently. I blame myself for not being there I could have saved her" "That's awful" I reached out and touch his hand he held onto mine "We were very much in love. when I came here for a fresh new start I met you and fell in love all over again but I put up a wall because I promised myself I would never let myself fall in love ever again. So its not that I mean to be horrible It just my defence and I know that its cant take back how much I've said to you at time except Kali I'm sorry" This whole thing shook me up the deep dark past of Jay was now out and it would change my life in many ways I would never look at him as the horrible person that I hate but as the strongest person I know and love. "Jay it's no your fault and please let me in" "I cant" he then broke down In tears I hugged him and didn't let go how could I have ever known how much pain he has be through. "Do my a favor kali don't fall in love with me" "To late" "this cant happen Kali go back to Josh" "I wont I love you"' I couldn't believe it I just said I love you to Jay I had never said that to Josh so that show's my feelings "DON'T" he yelled and pulled away from me I hated how I ended things with Jay but what could I do if he wouldn't let me in I couldn't tell anyone because he trusted me. I was sitting home one Friday night alone on my bed thinking about what Jay said "Kali someone's on the phone" Mum called "I've got it" I yelled and picked up the other phone "Kali Babe" It was Josh I hadn't spoken to him all week "Josh" "So anyway I know you've been busy with study" "Study?" Yeah Gemma told me Thank you Gemma I thought you are a life saver I didn't want to talk to Josh I have thought Of breaking up with him but I cant bring myself to do it then I realized I was scared of being alone if I break up with Josh and Jay doesn't come my other half I will be alone now come to think of it that's why I stayed with Josh for so long. I'm scared of being alone. "Oh yeah I've had heaps of homework at that" "Well do you want to go to jay's basketball game it's on tonight please Kali I've missed you cant we just go out tonight" "Well... "Come on kali its Friday night you shouldn't be doing homework" "All right I'II come" "Wicked pick you up in fithteen minutes" I've decided that maybe its better if I stay with Josh we have so much fun together were we voted the mostly likely couple to stay together for the year book this year so I will see how tonight goes maybe this whole thing will go away when I'm in Josh's arms. "Kali you look great" Josh said as I hoped in his car "Thanks" "So this game should be pretty good tonight Jay has been busy all week too training for it" Looks like I wasn't the only one staying out of Josh's way at the moment. Kali you know the final dance coming up this year well I was kinda wondering" This is all I need is for him to ask me to the final dance and if I said I would think of it he will know somethings going on. "That its not a good idea if we go together actually kali our feel our relationship has headed to a end" "What" He was actually trying to break up with me I couldn't believe it even though its what I wanted it still hurt me we had been together for 6 months and it was true we had so much fun together and I would miss our good times from the movies to the parties. "Kali I still care about you but I think it's time we had a change" He said grabbing my hand for comfort This is what I wanted but my heart ached and tears began to roll down my face maybe it was my fear of being alone that was making me cry or maybe they were tears of finally having the easy way out. "I'm sorry Kali" "It's OK Josh" "It is?" "I know what you are saying lately I've felt like there is nothing left in our relationship it's come to a dead end" "Really" He sounded surprised "I hope we can still stay really good friends" "Of coarse" he said We both smile since the break up was mutual no one got hurt although I was a little offended that he wanted to break up with me but now I'm a free women. We got to the game just as it started we both sat in silence for a minute not knowing what to say. I looked around to find Jay number 12 playing. "Where is he?" "Yeah he wouldn't miss this game for anything" "Something must have happened" I said worried "The team need him" Josh said "Josh can I borrow your car?" "Ok Kali I will get a lift home with Kelly Piper" I couldn't believe it Josh had a thing for that rich tart but then why shouldn't he she was popular, pretty but a bit of a social climber I always thought. "You to make a good couple" "Thanks Kali and you go find your love" He knew he knew I had feelings for his best friend all this time and didn't say anything but I was glad he knew. I grabbed his keys and drove over Jays house his Mum said she thought he was at the game. I past the basketball court where our magic happened and there he was sitting in the middle of the court with his basketball in his hands. "Jay" I yelled and he didn't even look my way "Jay" I yelled again "Kali" he said and turned in my direction "The big game why aren't you there?" "There are more important things than a stupid basketball game" "Look at me Jay" "Put down the wall Jay I'm hear for you" "I cant everyone I love gets hurt" "Well I wont" I said kissing him "I love you Kali" "I love you too Jay" How could someone seam so strong on the outside but be so weak underneath. Jay was not what I thought he was. when we first met he made fun of me that I grew to hate him not even thinking why he made me angry what he really was the side I never got to know. Ive learned to not look past someone just because they make you angry and I decided that my life's ambition now was to become a pyscogist so I could help people like Jay. The couple most likely to stay together for the year book change it now became Jay and I. Josh was now going out with Kelly Piper, Gemma is now going out with this guy from her Maths class and they have been together for longer than a week lets say and I really think Gemma is falling for him. We all went to the final dance and had a blast this was my year O worked out who I was and what I wanted without the help of anyone else to this day Jay and I remain as happy as ever.
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