Planar Void WELCOME TO MY POETRY BOOK ENTITLED "PLANAR VOID"!!! Note: Some are based on songs I've heard... ------------------------------------------------------------------ "What I'm Thinking" This will all fall down like everything else that was This too shall pass and all of the words we said We can't take back Now every fool here would've left by now I can't replace all the wasted days The memory of your face. I can't help thinking… Maybe if we ever coulda kept it all together Where would we be A thousand lost forevers And the promises you never were giving me What I'm thinking is… It won't be the first heart that you break It won't be the last guy in your life Tell me one more time How you're sorry about the way This all went down. We needed to still be friends Needed each other to call if we ever couldn't keep it all together we'd comfort each other Tell me but forever And the promises I never should have believed in What I'm thinking is… It's over now - And I've gone without Cuz you're everybody else's girl It seems to me - you'll always be Everyone else's girl This will all fall down Like everything in the world This too, I guess, must end And everything else that was We can't take back "playing games" is this it? is this what you wanted? i thought you wanted the best for me. then why am i here? why are you doing this to me? you once said you loved me. you once told me i was the one. now i'm sitting here lonely without you. is that what you wanted? you win. i give up. you always were good at playing games. "KiLL SWiTch" the kill switch of life. We're all put face to face with it. Should we pull or shouldn't we? Should we break down on the stresses of the world and give up? Should we put down our weapons and submit to society? It seems to me this world is just a blue vise and I'm getting crushed in its grip. The tighter you grasp at the problems, the more they'll just seep right out. Problems are like a puddle. When you step on them, it just spreads to a lot of small one's. What now am I supposed to do? I've tried. I've done my best. I can't believe where I am. EM PLEH "Ashes to Ashes" There was once a time... A time of love. Of true love. Of yielding and unconditional love. Unstoppable. Then there was a time... A time of anger. Of agony. Of disrespect and deceit. Uncurable. "The Game" You win! You did it! You got what you wanted! Congratulations! I'm so happy for you! You won the game. The game of love. I lose. I failed. Now I'm lonely. But at least you got what you wanted... A life without me. "Aggravation" I think this world's out to tick me off. Everything in it...from big to small...does just that! Why do I have to go directly to jail? Come on, let me collect my $200! I mean really! I ask for ketchup for my Super Size fries and I get two packets. Good enough for 2 fries, maybe. I go to pay for something and I'm short a penny. They make me go all the way to my car to get that penny, too. What'd I ever do to this planet? I don't litter. I'm polite. The guy in front of me on the interstate is always going at least half the speed I want to go. People in elevators have to hit the button I already pressed at least 10 times "to make it go faster." Oh, did I mention...the people at the DMV are the kindest, gentlest souls out there. And you know, I volunteer. I feed the poor. I go to church. Speaking of which, it's always very convenient I sit right in front of the loudest-crying kid in there. My computer only crashes when I have a report to do. My mom's always on the phone right when I need to make an important call. Santa Claus "couldn't find" the CD I wanted, so instead I get Eiffel 65's megamix CD. And I would read the rest of these, but also conveniently the printer ran out of ink. "Remember" Remember when we met? You were so nice to me. Your beautiful smile pierced through me. Cupid's arrow hit its target. Remember when you gave me your number? We were both really nervous. And we both had a crush on each other. Those seven digits on my hand were priceless to me. Remember when we talked on the phone? We never had an awkward pause. We laughed constantly. You told me how you felt you could talk to me about anything. Remember when we went out on our first date? You were so beautiful. Your hair, your eyes,...all of you was beautiful. You truly were the girl of my dreams. Remember when I asked you out? We were on the picnic table tht sunny Friday afternoon. You put on my class ring for the first time then. Right then, simply put, I knew I was in love. Remember the good times together? Our first movie... The first time we held hands... Our first kiss... Do you remember when you broke my heart? Crushed the lifeforce of love in me... When you made me hurt, suffer,...cry. When you once again made the girl of my dreams just that... A dream and never a reality. If the cost of love is tears and sorrow, then please... Leave me be. "Top 10 Things Only Women Understand" 10. Why it's good to have five pairs of black shoes. 9. The difference between cream, ivory, and off-white. 8. Crying can be fun. 7. FAT CLOTHES. 6. A salad, diet drink, and a hot fudge sundae make a balanced lunch. 5. Discovering a designer dress on the clearance rack can be considered a peak life experience. 4. The inaccuracy of every bathroom scale ever made. 3. A good man might be hard to find, but a good hairdresser is next to impossible. 2. Why a phone call between two women never lasts under ten minutes. AND THE NUMBER ONE THING ONLY WOMEN UNDERSTAND: 1. OTHER WOMEN! "Things to do in a Grocery" 1. Juggle the fruits. 2. Wedge things in all the freezer and refridgerator doors so that they don't close all the way. 3. Buy a live lobster and set it free in the store. 4. Shake all the sodas. 5. Have shopping cart races down the aisles. 6. Dump the tray of food samples in your purse. 7. Use cantalopes for bowling balls and pineapples for bowlings pins and hold a bowling tournament in the aisles. 8. "Accidentally" drop a jar of pickles and walk away very, very fast. 9. Fill a shopping cart with things like toilet paper, daipers, and kleenex and leave it in the cereal aisle. 10. Make racecar noises as you "drive" your shopping cart up and down the aisles. 11. When they ask you if you want "paper or plastic" reply, "papestic please." 12. Play hopscotch on the tiles on the floor. 13. Get in the express line with more than ten items. 13. Try a food sample and then say in a loud voice, "This is terrible!" 14. Whenever someone is blocking the aisle infront of you go "beep beep!" 15. Ask one of the cashiers if they have any pork that is suitable for a sacrificial offering. 16. Play with the pet toys. 17. Stick grapes in your mouth and spit them at people who aren't looking. When they turn around look the other way. "Planar Void" How can I cure this hole within me? This inner depth… …ever since you left. Each new day that passes by without you Feels like another stab in my back. Every morning I woke up with a smile, Now I wake up with a tear in my eye. Your voice now feels like another push on the torture rack of life. No physical pain could equal the emotional pain I've suffered. Every waking minute of my life is suffering now. You never leave my thoughts. I have that hole in me again that I had before you… The planar void of loneliness. "the END" the rage in my eyes couldn't have compared to the eye of the sun the rage took it's course took it's course through the hands of a sword revenge the rolltide so, is this the end for us, my friend? the stains in the sky appear to remind us of man and his pain when two worlds collide one steals the life like a thief in the night so look to the sky, He holds the keys for your life and mine so, is this the end for us, my friend? what's the reason why there's no day as the moon hides the sun no more soul for the man who's crying is gone so tell me, is this the end for us, my friend? "Relationships 101 Instructor: God" Lesson 1-The Meet and Greet Okay, so you meet this really hot chick and you're telling yourself she's too good for you. But y get to talkin' and "whamo!" you've got yourself a genuine schoolboy crush and a phone number. Lesson 2-The Conversation So you talk and talk with this girl and the both 'a ya think you go together like Jack and Jill. You realize you spend a lot of your time on the phone with her and the rest of it thinking about her! Lesson 3-The Relationship Wow, you finally hook up 'wit this girl of your dreams and everything is hunky-dory. You go out every weekend with her, you kiss her; hell, everything is great! Lesson 4-The Downfall You realize things aren't like they used to be. You start being submissive and all lubby-dubby…but your efforts are in vain. You struggle, but deep down you know the end is near. Lesson 5-The End Yeah, well, hell---it had to happen sooner or later. There's so many hostile feelings and so much friction between the two of you…and you realize it'll never work. Lesson 6---The Aftermath Now comes the fun stuff---depression, anger, hate, etc. The two of you seem to still be where you left off even with the "let's just be friends" gimmick. You wallow in your own misery and ask "Why? Why me?" 10,000 times a day. Lesson 7---The Realization Now you realize she was just a learning experience for you. You know now what to expect and how to handle things. This is when you thank God for that learning experience 'cause now you're really ready for the REAL dream girl. Lesson 8---New Beginning The new girl comes along and you live happily ever after. (Hopefully, or else you'll be in this class again!) "unpredictable" Baby, neither of us saw this coming. We once had a fire burning within each other But it has long since been extinguished. I see now why we had the time we did together. We needed each other then, and now we don't. We never saw this coming, we always prayed it didn't. And now we will move on from each other. You will go your way and I mine In this fork in the road. In the end, we'll both look back and realize all we were was a learning experience for each other. To make our lives in the future better. Thanks for the time spent with me. It was good while it lasted. Thanks for the life lesson. Have a great one. "The Memories of You and Me" What am I supposed to do With all these blues Haunting me everywhere No matter what I do Watching the candle flicker out In the evening glow I can't let go When will the night be over I didn't mean to fall in love with you And baby there's a name For what you put me through It isn't love, it's robbery I'm dealing with the memories of you and me Seen a lot of broken hearts Go sailing by Phantom ships lost at sea And one of them is mine Raising my glass I sing a toast to the midnight sky I wonder why The stars don't seem to guide me The memories of you and me When will it set me free I hear the voices call Following footsteps down the hall Trying to save what's left Of my heart and soul "Lost Love" There were times I knew But I found it hard to say You were special in my life Never thought you'd go away I'll be strong I'll get by Without you in my life I can see through your lies Did you ever love me I never found your love You and I know Love is leaving And you don't want me anymore Why should I even try You and I know Love is leaving Now you're the last thing on my mind Someone else I will find A memory I've left behind If I ever made you cry Any reason I can't find It was lonely by your side Like a fool I stood by you Is there something I could do Is there something I should say Is there someone else To keep you from me now "Love on the Outside" God knows I've been hurt before You know what I've been through Time helps, but it doesn't cure The scars will never heal Said your love was never ending But it slowly disappeared I know you want my heart But a friend is all I need Cause this love on the outside Is all I can give But this love on the inside Needs some place to live If I give you my heart Would you give it a home Cause this love on the outside Is love all alone I know that you love me Said a million times You know that it's hard for me Been told a million lies I'm taking my time I've made up my mind It's you I'm needing You I believe in It's love forever and a day "the Past" Let's just be friends you said That wish you got But what you didn't know is my heart felt dead And my only thought was forget me not I thought I hated you I thought you disgusted me Then I loved you 'Cause you were so kind to me Why can't you just decide what you want Is it me For me, it's that body you flaunt What I want is what I see Time goes by so fast Both of us are lonely Why is it that we didn't last I just can't stop thinking about the past. "Her Eyes" At the beauty of creation You will wonder, lost in her eyes. But her eyes will see only lust. Tears see only impossible lies. Almost kneeling to symbol of beauty... Call of honor, you turn and leave. And she will never forget you. And she will never forgive. All the crazed winds of Chaos Can undo things that Destiny set. For eternity souls will be waiting. Love is not something souls forget. "If Only You Could Know" I see you in your sea of despond For some reason, I am unable to respond I want to swim out to offer you hope But I am bound by this rugged rope I lay here pinned to the safe shore As I watch you struggle even more I want to reach out with my hand Seize you and bring you back to land Dry all the tears from your eyes Kiss you and make you realize That I want to be close to you I want you to trust that I am true From my feet I've been swept My promises will never go unkept But you don't know these thoughts I keep Because you're drowning, the water's too deep Now here I am, restrained and helpless And there you are, thinking I'm careless. "Love Not Divulged" I am so glad I stopped loving you, You had me fooled for awhile. You owned my thoughts and dictated my feelings; You even possessed the power of my love. Don't you realize what this means? I haven't loved! It's still a hidden treasure! I haven't lost my innocence, so the search continues To harness the power of my love. I am so glad I stopped loving you. If that was love, what a disappointment. How immensely overrated! I remain thirsty for my mug of true love. Love doesn't doubt; I always doubted you. Love trusts; I never trusted you. Love is not a marsh of insecurity and despair. Love is a gleaming lake of respect and honor. I haven't found that lake quite yet, But I persist against the current. The journey may be grueling and tiresome, But someday I'll rest in the middle of the lake. And I'll watch you struggling for a breath. Don't come to me for help. "The One" This poem is dedicated to my ex-girlfriend Ashley and it's my favorite… When I first saw you, I knew you were the one. When I first spoke to you, I knew you were the one. When I first touched you, I knew you were the one. When we first went out, I knew you were the one. When we finally hooked up, I knew you were the one. When we fell in love, I knew you were the one. When we laughed together, I knew you were the one. When we cried together, I knew you were the one. When you hurt me and were mean to me, I still felt you were the one. When we broke up, I wondered if you were still the one. Now I sit here lonely without you. And I wonder if you ever really were the one. I can only wish you were…the one. "The Icon" There once was a boy who felt his life was going the drain. There was also a girl who felt the same way. The two crossed each other's paths. And neither will forget that day. They laughed and joked. Flirted and smiled. They obviously had the hots for each other. So they decided to talk again. They did so and eventually fell in love. Soon they hooked up. And the idealistic couple was formed. Or so they thought. They each loved each other very deeply. Many couples were jealous of them. They kissed and hugged. Whenever they had the time. Then they started to argue and fight. He cried and she told him to be quiet. He felt he loved her very deeply. And did not know what to do. Eventually they separated. But he still loved her very deeply. She moved on. And he kept crying. Then they fought again and again… And what we learn is there's still no happy ending.
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